21st Birthday...

It was my 21st Birthday yesterday! I've lived in this world for 21 years and now stepped into the 22nd year in this world.. The time has passed by very fast, without my realization I'm alredy in university studying 2nd year in medical school!!! Wowowow...

By the way, let me just share how was my day.. It started with the 1st Birthday msg by yoges who's all the way in msia. I was in Sitara celebrating Sabrina and Manoj's 8th month anniversary.. Owh by the way forgot to introduce, Sabrina is my senior and my dear friend in Bali. Manoj is her boyfriend who came down all the way from INDIA!!! So sweet of him.. Their anniversary was two days ago, on the 7th. So, they gave us a treat.. Us means Rhuban and myself.. now, rhuban is my dear chippi, my lovely friend, Sab's housemate and batchmate. As manoj and rhuban was bullying Sab and I, My phone started 'singing' indicating im receiving msgs. and yea, it was all bday msgs from my frens... Then, I sent them back and headed home just to get a call from my parents. Eventhough I'm away from my house, they are all close in my heart always. My parents and bro wished me, and my dearie Tifa chan called from Jogja and we were talking for hours at that time.. After all it'll cost only 400 rupiah per call after 12am. hahaha..

The next morning, I woke up and wore my new punjabi suit and prayed at home. I thought of going to Baba centre to pray but then I realised that I have to go alone so I dropped the idea and did prayers at home. I felt peace and was grateful to Him. Then, I went for lunch. I had a great company from Indrani akka, Shalaini akka and Vimal anne. Thanks to them for accepting my invitation and came for lunch.. We had lunch in D'cost and was chit chatting for a long time. I had never spent time with Indrani and Shalaini akka like this before, always will be talking about studies studies and studies. Oh by the way, they are some awesome people I can get advise on studies.. I'm glad to know them in my life. After lunch I went with them for shopping in Matahari and Robinson. They helped me to choose a casual wear which I bought it for myself as my birthday baju. They also bought for me a pair of earing as my birthday gift. It was lovely!! Then we went to Mcdonalds for an ice cream evening.. So, yea.. There went my joyful afternoon. After that, I came back home and thanked all my friends who wished in facebook and was lazing around.

That evening, Sab, Manoj, Rhuban and Vicky took me out for dinner. On that day Sasi followed too. That was a funny evening. They wanted to surprise me and just took me to the place. But, me being smart and kinda well versed on direction, guessed where we were heading to. They actually took me to Jimbaran for seafood!!! Unfortunately, it was closed. :( U see, it was a public holiday for Bali because it was MY birthday!! lolx! Actually it was galungan on that day and the shops were closed. So, we had to change our plans and went to Skygarden Lounge for dinner. We all had a nice chit chat and laughter fill the table. Before leaving Sab brought my birthday cake! It was an ice cream chocolate cake. I was so excited and was so happy the whole day!! And it was Sab and Manoj's treat on that day, dinner as well as the cake.. Manoj was our guest and he got a place in everyone's heart in such a shot time.. God bless u both! :)

Thank you very much guys! I really appreciate it! :) I love u all... I had a funny and spontaneous day just as I wanted!! A day with my friends where everyone's happy... Nothing significant but a fun filled day, it is my 21st and it took its own place in my little heart!

Survival

What's survival? If u can live with whatever u have, that’s what u call survival... This includes everything.. I mean, everything! We cannot expect everything to be the same as home rite? Parents will spend for us at home but we have to manage our own expenses when we are away from home. We might have living a luxuries life provided by parents but have to adjust and learn to live life as it is when u r away. Same goes to friendship. We might have the best friends on earth who we can get along with but in a new place we might not get along with so many people. There'll be so many people with different attitude and character. We need to learn to go with the flow. We need to adjust ourselves according to the changing world. In this fast moving world, people are becoming more and more selfish, careless and to the extent of forgetting humanity. Though we are friends, for some own self comes before everyone else. So, we have to know who to place where. Care for those who care for u and leave behind those who don’t bother about u. What's the point when u is not appreciated? Don't hurt or ignore the people who care for u thinking of those who only care about themselves. Keep those who love u close to you and enjoy life with them. You might have not noticed them as they are there for u always. Find and appreciate them. See the world together with them and you'll find happiness and peace of mind. Trust me, with them you'll survive anywhere u go...

Betrayal...

BETRAYAL!!!! Is it a big word to say? Well, I don't think so. I don't call anyone LIER or BACK STABBER very easily but once u break my trust, getting it back is next to impossible!!!! And yea, that's what I'm getting as a gift now for being nice, kind and helpful to almost everyone. A wise man said 'greet even your enemy'. I think thats what i've been doing all the while... help them when they ask despite me dislike that person. But for ur surprise, the person who u dislike will actually feel grateful for u but these so call 'friends' just love to take advantage on u, talk bad abt u at the back but will chickened out to confront u. Do we need that kind of frens?? The uneasiness will kill u when u r around these kind of people. How can u be yourself when u know u cant be. Twist and turn whatever u said, cucuk here cucuk there and act innocent in front of u..... GOSH!!! shameless species! selfish buggars! God when r u going to filter the world?? Am waiting for that day to arrive... God give me the power to fight these kinda people and to survive in this corrupted world!

How to be A Nice Junior?

In your journey as a student, u will be a junior first before becoming a senior after that. Well, most of us would have experienced it and the senior-junior thing will become more significant starting from high school. Once you stepped into university, seniority speaks louder than age. You might be elder than your senior... Haha, funny rite? But yes, thats the reality. Senior - junior relationship is very important in varsity as seniors are the only ones who can help juniors in anything through their experience... But in order for them to help the juniors, the foundation of the relationship must be strong enough. Thats why the orientation programme is held everywhere. Basically this as a ice breaker between the seniors and the new juniors, to strenghten the bond, to get to know each other more. The juniors' behaviour and attitude during orientation period are the ones gives the first impression to the seniors. So, to be a good junior, there are some dos and donts especially for the orientation period.

- Introduce yourself to the seniors.
- Smile at them or go and talk to them when u see them anywhere.
- During this time, "seniors are always right" eventhough they are wrong.
- Juniors have to agree with the seniors eventhough u personally disagree.
- If seniors' question u, u should repond to them.
- Do whatever they ask u to do.
- Entertain them.

Dont's
- Don't talk back at the seniors.
- Don't talk when a senior is talking ni front.
- Don't complain too much
- Don't bore them
- Don't use hp during the programme
- Act like a junior not like a chilhood close fren

These are few steps a junior must follow in order to become a good, nice n noticable junior. Be sporting and don't take anything to heart.. Have fun in the programme besides learning some survival on your own.. :)

Guys in my Life...

I've seen not much guys in my life... But all the guys I know till today are all unexpectedly different from each other. Bah kata pepatah, banyak orang banyak ragam.. Not that I'm unaware about it before this, but it was just some cultural shock 4 me. I mean, how childish can a guy be? If u dun like something leave it. Shouldn't be bothered to comment or just confront and drop the matter there itself! I grew up looking at my grandfather, father and uncles who are firm, strict but fun to be around. Perhaps I'm looking for guy similar like them, I don't know... But this...!!!

I do know some guys who are really fun to be around, but I cant talk with them casually... They are too playful. Some are scary to talk with.. Some, no point talking with them... I don't know what kind of guy is the one I like.. Haizzz, why cant I find someone whom I really can befriend with?? This world is so sad... :(

Friendship....

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When u know which one it is, you'll know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed..
They have come to assist you through a difficulty..
To provide you with guidance and support..
To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually..
They may seem like a godsend and they are..
They are there for a reason you need them to be..

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
This person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die..
Sometimes they walk away..
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand..

What we must realize it that our need has been met,
Our desire fulfilled, their work is done!
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people will come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh..
They may teach you something you have never done..
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy..
Believe it, it is real..
But only for a Season!!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
Things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation..
Your job is to accept the lesson,
Love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life..
It is said that Love is Blind but Friendship is clairvoyant..

Back Home..

Afte a messed up exam, I'm finally back home!! I smelled my motherland with a relieved feeling. I enjoyed the air for a few seconds when I'm coming down from the flight. So many questions were running in my mind, I was so confused about things that happening in my life lately... Everything will be back to normal once I meet my dad... And yes, there he was, my hero waiting for my arrrival. I felt very peaceful when I saw the smile in his face...

Now, here I am...back at home...enjoying being at home... watching Thomas & Uber Cup 2010... Hafiz was sizzling last nite... Awesome performance! Tomorrow is another big day... M'sia vs China!! Let's have faith in our player... and let's pray for their success.. With all our prayers and a little luck... We can win the league this year!! Malaysia Boleh!! =)

empty...

I don't know what I'm feeling now. I feel like a dumb yesterday when I couldn't do the questions when I alredy cover all the lectures till yesterday. The paper was tough for me, perhaps because I didn't understand what I was studying. This block is nothing about memorising, but understanding! ahhhh..........that's the problem now. Too much to study and very little time to understand... It was like this all this while, but don't know why I'm feeling it only now. God help me!!

I don't know why but I'm not happy here. Why why why??? I'm trying to be happy, but I just couldn't. I know I'll get angry fast. I'm not a kind of person who sarcasticly will reply if someone's teasing me. I don't want anyone to get hurt, either by my words or by my actions. Is this y i'm not be bothered? Is this my fault to think like this? I just don't get it. But whatever it is, I'm thank god for what I'm having now, for what I am now and for what I'm experiencing each now and then. And I'm just waiting for the exam to over and go back home. HOME SWEET HOME!!! =)

Uyirum neeye lyrics...

Uyirum neeyae udalum neeyae unarvum neeyae thaayae - than
udalil sumandhu uyiril kalandhu uruvam tharuvaay neeyae
un kannil vazhiyum oru thuli poadhum kadalum urugum thaayae
un kaaladi mattum tharuvaay thaayae sorggam endbadhu poyyae

(uyirum)

vinnaip padaiththaan mannaip padaiththaan
kaatrum mazhaiyum oliyum padaiththaan
boomikku adhanaal nimmadhi illai
saami thaviththaan thaayaip padaiththaan


I miss my mom at this very moment. Miss u lots ,ma!! Meaningful lines...

AWESOME lyrics, hats off to Vairamuthu. I love this song - music by my favourite music director, AR Rahman and sang by my favourite singer, Unnikrishnan. Superb combo...

frustration....

How long this situation is gona prolong?? When I first came to bali, I din tot that m gona be placed in such a wonderful hostel... Seriously, the hostel I'm staying now is way better than what I expected it to be. A room for myself with no worries abt water and electric usage. But now, m facing water problem especially when I need water the most. There's no water in hostel yesterday the whole day and today till 2 hrs ago. I've to go for an exam on monday, and m praying hard this doesnt happen on that day. Not only water, the electricity also keep on tripping and wen it trips at nite, there goes our studies, sleep, everything... Over usage causes this, i noe...but v are in a situation cannot tell out the people who are overusing it. They must noe it as they also effected by this incidents. haiz... thank god, now I've both water n electricity...may this remain till my exam over.

I so wanted to go for bhajan since last week and I'm not getting a chance. Oh god, why? Please... U noe what's happening lately... I hope, i'll go for one as soon as possible... ;)

Who I am?

What do you think you should do when you like someone? Known the person only for few months, don't know anything about the person, but you think u like that person... silly right? I noe it is... As for me, I do not want to spoil the good friendship I'm having by telling I like the person. I'm very particular about what people think about me. I dont want to give a bad impression to anyone. I dont want them to think what I'm not, what else when it comes to the person I like? Obviously I do not want that... So, m maintaining my distance... But the question running in my mind, what shud I do? I cannot forget, cos practically I bump into the person everyday. huh...
But 1 thing I'll assure for this person, happiness.... The person I like must have a happy life. Whether I'm in this person's life or not, whoever comes into this person's life must make this person happy... wait, did I even tell u all whether this person is a guy or a girl???

Miss u Mohan!!

06/03/2010 - a day that will not get away from my mind... I lost my dearest cousin brother, Mohan in a car accident. He was the only one I had to call anne and now I lost him. God loves him more i think. May be our granpa, grandma, uncle n our another cousin varunesh need Mohan's help up there. That's y they took him with them. Mohn is a helpful kid. He goes all out to help his family and friends if they seek his help. One thing common I realised in all their deaths. They would have passed away a day before any of our family member's birthday and the funeral will be on the respective person's birthday. Same thing today, as it is our youngest aunt's birthday come with Mohan's funeral.

I hope u didn't suffer much pain. No one else can ever replace ur place in my heart. U are very special and will always remain special for me, for all of us...ur family. I'm praying for your soul to rest in peace, my dear brother! I love u and gona miss u for the rest of my life. Rest In Peace! Om Nama Shivaya..

Being in Relationship...

How does it feel to be in relationship? To have someone to take care of u...to be there wen u need someone by your side...to share ur happiness, sadness... In short, sumone just for u! I really wonder.. Those who are in relationship mostly showing only their happiness outside as though it is heaven to b in relationship. But I've also seen some who only talks about the sad part of the relationship as though nothing happy had happen. Not seen, looking at the person each and everyday... listening to quarrels...but the best part abt this couple is they will break up and couple up again in the next 15 minutes time. Most of the couple I've known are not loyal to each other. That is the most sad part of all and this really scares me.

As for me, if u fall for someone, that person should be ur life after that. U should fall for the person who u are going to get married and settle down in ur life with that person. Its not a joke. Or else don't fall in love and spoil the person's life. Loyalty and trust is very important in every relationship after understanding each other. No point of being "friends for benefit"! That's the stupidest thing I find in so called relationships! What's happening? Two person are said to be in love but both flirting with some other person without each other's knowledge and even when they get to know, no one bothers and suddenly one day they break up and they both cool about it... My My.... world is becoming rediculusly crappy!!

Fall for one who u really think can be with the person, stick with the person, and share ur life with person!

Review...

Langkan wrote her journal today. Nothing much..it was obvious that she's not happy be back in this lost island. She was upset cos there's no 1 here to make her days brighter (not even me?? sad sad*cry cry*)...she misses her sunshine... Lol!! Oh yea, she had some good chat with the senior staying in front of our hostel yesterday while playing with her doggy and she calls her FURBALL! Langkan showed me her glowing face wen I went to senior's hse cos they were talkin abt her sunshine and her furball kissed her trice and she enjoyed it!!! hahahaha.... mmm,dun wish 2 talk abt d sad part here, let my entry be happy happy and happy!!! :P

So, what did I do...oh yea, I was screaming half of the time I was in senior's hse cos langkan's furball tried kissing me too...n both langkan and senior were trying to direct furball towards me... haiz haiz haiz...evil people!!

Ok ppl, my pleno gona start n I need to sleep b4 lecturer comes in or else I'll be sleeping in pleno. So, chao 1st... Happy Always guys!

Ja mata ne!!

My LANGKAN is back!!!!!!

wohoo people! Afta 10 days, finally my Langkan is back in Bali... m hanging out in her room rite now while she's on phone talking wif "Ladoo".... he he he he^^ I was left alone with my dear golty here. And for 10 days Golty and I was having some real good time together....we makan together, we go ride on bike together, we went to campus together, we watched super duper movies together den fall asleep, and the best part is we STUDIED together!!!! fuuhhh..... interesting no? hehe:P :P

I also spent lots of time talkin wif one of my senior staying in front of my hostel. She's really nice and it was great talking with her. I spent my new year eve in her house with her housemate, another senior blasting fireworks in front of their house.. It was a wonderful night looking at the sky with fireworks everywhere. AWESOME!!!!

And now as my langkan came back...the 1st thing I did was I read her journal! wohoo....she misses her sunshine. Her sunshine went back on d same day with her but diff flight...and he's staying just a KTM station away from her hse. But she neva bump into him anywer, by any chance!! sad sad...and so she misses her sunshine. she sad now that even afta she came back to Bali she cnnt see him cos he'll be back here afta 2 weeks ni... haiz haiz... The best part is, even the guy duno that he's my langkan's sunshine....he makes her days brighter.. Lovely..

So, ppl...let's hope he'll get to know her and they'll be together in their life. Good Luck, my dear Langkan!!